27 February 2011

Ahad lepas kami bdk2 ASB2EN ramai2 sambut birthday Amy kat tasik seksyen 7. Dah lame tak berkumpul ramai2 macam tu. The last time pun masa kak Emi ade lagi bersame kitorang. Mase tu pun cume dgn bdk2 perempuan je. This time lagi ramai yg join. But still ade jugak yang tak cukup. Kepada bdk2 yang tak dapat datang tu, serious korang rugi!!! Hahahaha sape suruh tak datang, kan dah tak dapat makan pizza..hehe

Hari tu hari yang tersangat lah serabut untuk saya. Pressure betul dari semua orang. Mane taknye, semua orang dah mesej2 tanye itu ini. Aaaaahhhh serabutttttttttttttttttt!!!!!!!!! Lepas ni tak moh dah handle ape2 lagi. Hahaha memang tak bley nak jadi leader la kalau macam ni. Nasib baik ade Nizam and Rabek tolong belikan air and kek.. Thanx yer korang! Appreciate it sangat2.. ringan sikit beban. And sorry sangat2 kat Lily, Nisa, Aina and Amy (bday gurl) kerana terpaksa menunggu saya dengan penuh sabar di Pizza Hut..hehehe sorry ek korang, macam la tak kenal kite kan..selalu lambat...huhu

After dah beli pizza tu, then kitorang berlima pun gerak ke tasik tu. Sampai2 je kat sane Nampak Juwe dgn Suhail dah tercongok kat situ. Muka dah macam orang tak makan seminggu..nampak je pizza laju je si suhail ni datang nak tolong..hahaha ade sebab tu nape die baik semacam..then kitorang semua pergi kat Bek yang tgh tunggu dgn chocolate cake..yummmm....

Tak lame pastu, nampak Nizam jln dgn Siti, Azi and Wana sekali. Akhirnye, cukup da orang..sesi untuk makan da bley dimulakan..sume muke kelaparan. Ciannye korang ek..penat menunggu punye pasal. Yang paling kesian bdk2 laki la. Sampai naik 2 bas nak datang situ.

Seronok makan ramai2 kat pondok tu. Lagi best bile tengah hujan. Dengan pondok yang bocor tu lagi, basah kitorang tapi yg paling penting selamatkan pizza dulu.hehehe macam2 la perangai budak2 ni bile tengah makan2. Baru terserlah perangai masing2 bila di luar kelas. Kalau tak semuanye muke serious. Macam nak makan orang je tengok..eh, silap..tu saye je...hahahaha

Yang paling tak bley tahan, si suhail ni..die bolot sume pizza tu. Sampai gaduh2 dgn lily sebab nak ambek the last piece..lawak betul la korang ni. Tapi yang paling best time berposing la kan..hehehe antara kenangan yang terindah bersame korang.

Tibalah mase untuk balik...ni part yg sedih..huhu kitorang tersalah ambek jalan pastu tak pasal2 sesat kat seksyen 7 tu..sebagai warga seksyen 7, saya tersangatlah malu kerana telah menyesatkan kawan2 ku yg lain..hahahaha puas ktorang meronda kat situ. Sakit kaki jalan. Tapi bila nak fikir balik, dapat jugak bakar kalori2 yang dah dikumpul dari makan pizza tadi tu..(saje nak sedapkan hati ni..) dalam sejam jugak la kitorang sesat tu. Sampai hampir dikejar orang gile..hahaha yang tu agak scary la jugak..jumpe dgn org separuh bogel pun ade..pendek citenye, macam2 la yg kitorang jumpe sepanjang perjalanan tu.

Jalan punye jalan, tiba2 ternampak bumbung Jakel yang berkerlipan.. harapan kembali bersinar untuk kami..haha ayat skema la pulak. Tapi serious waktu tu lega sangat sbb akhirnye kitorang dah tak sesat!! Hehe sampai je rumah terus terasa kepenatannye.. terasa diri sangat la busuk..hahaha lepas mandi ape semua terus landing atas katil..memang malam tu tak buat kerja ape2 pun. Nasib baik kelas start lambat pagi isnin tu. Bley la lepak dulu kan..hehe

So moral of the story is...bawak la kereta ye untuk kesenangan diri sendiri...hahaha lesen pun takde lagi, ade hati nak bawak kete plak...

Bday cake kami.. :)

Sibuk je suhail ni..

budak2 ASB2EN

Tahun baru, sem baru, azam baru, boyfriend baru???

Happy new year everyone!! :) 

New year celebration kali ni sangat la menyedihkan...why? sebab my 2 "bestfriends" x dpt join..huhu tak baik taw korang ni, penat2 kte dgn illani plan for the night but you guys couldnt make it. Oh well, next year je la nampaknye. Tapi, it wasnt that bad sangat la. I still had fun keluar berdua with Illani. Thanx babe, you're the best! Kepada yang dua org tu, janganlah terasa..hehehe kite tak  marah pun la. But just a bit disappointed la. Baru ingat nak lepak dgn korang for the last time before everyone balik kampus. But takde rezeki.

So what did we do on that night? Makan sampai berjam-jam lamenye..hahaha just to kill the time. Memang perut rase nak pecah dah mase tu. Tapi tahan je la kan. Kalau boleh, banyak lagi yang nak disumbatkan tu..hehe saye memang suke makan..da lame tak dapat borak2 macam tu. Memang tak ingat dunia la kitorang..After that, i have to change kasut sebab kaki da mule melecet gile2. Tu la gatal nak jugak pakai heels kan. Orang pakai, die pun nak ikut2 jgk. Kan da sakit...tapi nasib baik bawak extra sandal. Macam da tau2 je tu sebernanye..hehe memang tak biase pun pakai heels. I prefer to wear flats, but tibe2 teringin plak nak rase bagaimane rasenye jadi orang yang tinggi ni..hahahaha siannye la kan? lepas da tukar tu, barulah best jalan2..hehe orang perempuan kalau jalan memang tak sah kalau tak shopping. Walaupun duit tengah takde mase tu. So window shopping je la. Da la ternampak ade baju comel gile mase tu. Geram je tengok sebab tau dlm purse takde duit..Pastu teman lani pegi atm nak cucuk duit. Saje la nak check balance tinggal berape kan, rupe-rupenye duit ptptn da masuk. Yahooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!! Tak senonoh betul kan? terus keluarkan duit and patah balik pegi kedai tadi and try baju tu..hehehe beli jugak akhirnye. Actually sambil tu i was waiting for someone. He was late. He was very late. Die punye late tu sampai bunga api da habis pun still bayang pun tak nampak lagi. Di mane la cik abang sorang ni kan? Jam teruk katenye..memang kene belasah ar kan bile die sampai tu. Penat budak comel ni menunggu taw..hahaha comel la sangat kan..but most importantly, i kesian sangat kat lani sebab kene teman me tunggu orang tu. Sorry and thanks ye lani. I appreciate it so much!! Ntah berape jam la ktorang tunggu kan, sampai sume entrance kat the curve tu pun da tutup. Lagi satu problem nak cari kereta. Nasib baik mase tu kat parking dah tak banyak kereta so takde la susah sangat kami nak cari. Tapi ade hikmah disebalik kene tunggu lame2 tu, mase ktorang balik tu jalan sume dah tak jam..bagus2..but ktorang tersalah jalan thanx to me..haha cakap je duduk KL tapi jalan kat KL pun tak reti...

At last, home sweet home..balik tu i have to pack up my stuff dah sebab the next morning dah nak hantar barang ke shah alam. Lupe sangat2 pasal packing ni. Terlalu busy fikir pasal new year sampai tak ingat pasal nak balik shah alam dah..haha so pagi tu, after sending lani back ktorg terus straight pergi shah alam. Baru nak ambek kunci rumah and letak barang. This sem i got my own room. Dapat decorate the way i like. Tapi since my whole family dah rindu ( belum pergi pun diorang dah rindu..sweetnye..) petang tu i followed them back home.Sunday baru pergi lagi. This time still ade barang lagi nak bawak. Penuh satu kereta lagi. Ntah la ape barang yang banyak sangat tu sampai nak kene angkut barang dua hari.

Petang tu die datang with his friends. Sebab i asked him to teman me..hehe that night ktorg pergi port klang. Makan sane. I dont know ape masalah nyamuk dengan my kaki. Tapi seronok gile dorang berpesta macam ade signboard ckp "Free Meal" kat kaki i tu..yang pelik tu kaki i sorang je la kan yang kene..memilih betul nyamuk ni..kitorang lepak agak lame la. macam tak ade kelas je pagi tu dibuatnye..haha but when i went out with him that night, i think there might be something between us there. The way you look at me macam penuh kasih sayang..cehh iye ke? pandai2 je cik athena sorang ni. perasan pun ade gak..hehe Tapi all im saying is that kalau ade jodoh tu ade la kan..no need to rush things. Im happy with the way things are. Dont complicate kan things lagi dah. As if right now tak cukup complicated je..

MONDAY!!!! The first day of the first week of the first class..everything pun ok je la..tengok muke2 yang da lame tak tengok tu...rindu jugak rasenye kat korang. korang je tak rindu kite..huhu pastu tetibe mase nak balik tu start hujan and makin lame makin lebat. On the way nak balik tu, mase tengah jalan suddenly Ratna berhenti. tengok2 sandal die tertinggal. Yang lawaknye tu, bukan tertinggal atas jalan, but da terjatuh dalam longkang pun. Ntah macam mane die bley terjatuh dalam tu i pun dont know la..haha ktorang berempat pun berdiri la kat sebelah longkang tu fikir sape yang nak gi turun amik? Da la longkang tu dalam.Kang da turun tak naik2 plak. Pastu makin lame, hujan makin lebat and air mule mengalir dalam longkang tu. Kasut tu pun mule bergerak dengan air tu..lagi cuak ktorang.haha so in the end ktorang juz tinggalkan kasut tu..cedeynye la die kan..hehe takpe, nanti kte gi shopping kasut baru ye Ratna? hehehehe

Since tengah hujan lagi tu, so saye pun lepak la kat bilik Nisa and Lily..thanks sebab tumpangkan kte. Bilik korang mmg best. Tapi bilik kte lagi best..hahaha esok da plan nak keluar cari barang lagi dgn budak2 tu. Tak sabar nak esok. Bestnye kelas start lambat. hahaha enjoy while you can sebab only the first week je akan free mcm ni..

Baru tersedar yang saye telah banyak membebel in this post..hahaha sorry la. Da lame tak update kan. So ini la jadinye. Busy campur malas and takde mood. Kalau saye rajin and bosan ( macam sekarang ni) barulah i will update and post something new. Thats all from me this time..toodles :)

Crossroad

Tak ade sape yg boleh tolong kite kecuali diri sendiri..yes, i know that. Tapi masalahnye, susah sgt for me utk buat the right thing. I know what i should do, cume im not strong enough to do it je..im still weak. Kenape la when im totally ready to be in a serious relationship with someone, mesti kene mcm ni. Mcm kite ni x layak utk merase ape itu cinta. Tp biase la tu dlm kehidupan kan? ape yg kite nak susah btul nak dpt, tapi ape yg kite x nak bersepah-sepah dpn mate sampai rimas jadinye. Tina nak mintak maaf dkt semua org yg tina pernah lukakan perasaan diorang or rase mcm dipermainkan sbb mmg xde niat langsung tina nak buat mcm tu kat sesiape pun.

The story of my life..dari kecik sampai skrg, kalau dikumpulkan rasenye bley wat movie kot..haha i may look boring on the outside but im just trying to be tough and live life like everyone else. Life must go on kan? But when im with you its like im with my twin. You can read me like a book. From cover to cover. And all i have to do is gaze into your eyes. Even when im saying something, you know the true meanings of my word. Sometimes i feel like we dont have to talk to understand each other. Like we have our own way of communicating. Da lame i dont feel this close to someone. Is it too early to say that you're my soulmate? hmm..i've never considered anyone to be my soulmate, so thats a huge thing coming from me.

You keep saying that you love me so what are you waiting for? Those little things that you do that she hates, you know i adore them. It breaks my heart to see all that love that you've got is going to waste. She doesnt deserve someone as thoughtful, caring, sweet and romantic like you. Well, everyone deserves to be with a nice guy, but that doesnt mean she can treat you like that. Kalau betul one day die layan u dgn sepatutnye, i promise to stay away and try to forget u. But only if you two are happy and deeply in love with each other. Kalau everyday pun gaduh je, then whats the point staying in a broken relationship? Baru couple dah gaduh mcm org kahwin 20 tahun. Bayangkan la nanti bile da kahwin. Is it gonna get worse? Fikirlah u..im not saying this so that you'll choose me, tapi for u to think about your future. Is it worth it? If it is, then try to work it out with her. I da byk kali advice u kan bile u ade problem and gaduh dgn die. And everytime i x fikir pasal diri i pun. Kalau bley i nak save your relationship lagi eventhough dlm hati sedih that ur going through this when we could be so happy together. Tapi i sayang u. I nak u happy. Tapi i da penat tgk u asyik bersedih pasal die. U tau x i lagi sedih bile tgk u sedih?

Selamat tinggal sayang...

Sejak kebelakangan ni air mata asyik mengalir je. Emotional sangat saya ni.. Tapi thats how i feel. Daripada pendam lebih baik kita keluarkan. So today nangis lagi. Pasal apa? Ex nak kahwin dah tahun depan. Hmm..all i can say to him is good luck and i wish you all the best with her. Semoga bahagia bersama hingga ke anak cucu. At last, kahwin jugak kamu ye.. i know i wont get an invitation, tapi takpe la. i dont think i can stand to watch you marrying someone else. Tapi seikhlas hati ni, im happy for you.

Reading your last message reminds me of our memories together. The good and the bad memories. You're the first i had a serious relationship with. You taught me stuff that i would never learn with anyone else. You made me grew up. Made me anti poligamy..hahaha  We laughed, we cried, we shared almost everything back then. You were my bestfriend.

So you found your happy ending. Im happy as long as you're happy. And i know she's happy too. One advice to you if you're out there reading this, tolong la jaga hati dan perasaan dia. She doesnt need to know about the past. Lets keep it that way. And now that you're getting married, tolong la ubah perangai and jaga diri. Jangan nak menggatal dengan perempuan lain ye? Jadilah seorang suami yang setia. Because other than that, i know you're a very nice guy. Kalau tak, i wouldnt fall in love with you dulu kan?

Entah bila i can see you again. Tak nak jumpa pun tak ape la. I understand. Tapi mane la tahu kan if terjumpa kat mana-mana lepas ni, tegur-tegur la. Saya ni rabun sikit tak perasan orang. Orang jalan sebelah pun tak perasan, bukannya sombong.

Awak...saya nak awak tahu yang saya sentiasa sayangkan awak. Harap-harap satu hari nanti saya akan jumpa someone yang betul-betul sayangkan saya macam mane saya sayangkan awak dulu..

MALAS!!

So i just started this blog thingy..still getting the hang of it. Kalau saya rajin i will update it but obviously i am always lazy..malas nak tu, malas nak ni..even the simplest, easiest thing pun i will say malas..(note: malas is my fav word ntah sejak kurun ke berapa...hehe)

So hopefully when the "malasness" is gone, i'll try and do something with it.

Friendship

What is friendship? Is it something you can dispose of when you're done with it? Or something that you keep even when it only brings you nothing but misery? Or even something that can be bought? Whatever it is, i've experienced a tough time a few years back and thats when you can see who your real friends are. And to my surprise, its the least expected person..

Friends are easy to find but best friends, they're like gold. Once you've found them, keep hold of 'em and never let go. I'd rather have 5 best friends than a thousand of fake friends. Who needs those anyway? Kawan mase senang tapi bila kita susah, bayang pun tak nampak.

Thank you God for blessing me with wonderful friends. I am who i am now because of them. And i can be different with different people. So if you wanna see the real me, you should see me with my bestfriends because that's the real me.

And one thing for sure, once i considered you as my friend, you'll always be my friend no matter what. That can be my weakness sometimes. Saya tak berkira dalam persahabatan, tapi i expect to be treated the same way that i treat others.And dont take your friends for granted (or your lover for that matter..another thing i've learned)
Be my friend, get close to me and you'll understand who i am. You may not understand the things i do but thats ok. Because most of the time i dont understand it either. I dont know why i do the things i do. I just do it. I may be wrong and did some mistakes but i'm only human. So dont judge me before you even try to know me. But be warned, you may fall in love with me..hahahaha dont say i didnt warn ya! :p